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[29 Dec 2004|09:06pm]

onelife2live
Just some stuff... I was boredCollapse )

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n00bie here [21 Nov 2004|07:51pm]

kaosu_jouen666
hey sexy beasts and beastettes

Im 18 year old female from Canada. I'm new here. I'm a little deranged, but that's what's to be expected from all the shit I've been through. I'm sure everyone on here all has their story for their bouts of depression, inspiration and such...Like many of you on here I deal with it by cutting and drawing/art relatied stuff.
I'll be posting soem of my poems and art work on here. And I look forward to reading your's as well

Peace & Love

Ashley

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[29 Oct 2004|11:48pm]

onelife2live
Razor blades and suicide notes

The rain starts to fall
with no regrets
And then comes the tears
Happiness is a high
but all highs come to an end
Hope on the way up
Sickness coming back down
to live my life as you want
with blackened eyes
Just telling myself
That everyone cries
Tears so bitter
yet warm and comforting
Down to the lips that long for you
But you won't see
You can't control me
But i'll let you
If only you'll stay with me
If only for one more day
if only till the end of time
Or the end of my life as it may be
Cold wind hits my back
A familiar feeling
falling to the ground i call for you
You're never there
So what happens when you're tired of me?
Throw me back on the street
Thats where i belong
Throw me to the ground again
Atleast i can feel your touch
Slap me in the face again
The sting knocks me to the floor
Where i belong
At your feel, begging for mercy
Throw me out again
hit me while i'm down
The feeling of razor blades calm me
Hit me, throw me, slap me
But just don't leave me
Notebooks filled with suicide notes
Razor blades along the floor
Stains on the carpet
But i want more
Just throw me down
forget about me
let me be
Nothing will help me now
Not even you
Your words cut worse than blades
Wishing of the day
that i will have the courage
To take your words and throw them back at you
Take your pick
There's lots to chose from
Suicide notes along the floor
Razor blade in hand
Why pick one?
They all say the same thing
"I loved you, you're all i wanted.
I needed you to be there, And i hate you...
I hate you.... I love you"


yea....

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[26 Sep 2004|04:13pm]

sunshinejulz
Hello all.

I'm in the process of creating a book and I need some songs/poems/quotes or freestyle/freeverse that YOU have invented. I want to create a book to try and make people understand, so people can relate, for teens to release their anger and pain. If you wouldn't mind contributing to the making of this book, please e-mail your beautiful art work to black_rosexbroken_soul@hotmail.com Please include your full name, your age and a title for your work unless if it's a quote.

Thanks in advance.

<33 Julie

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[09 Jul 2004|11:20pm]

winged_me
Well, im bored, so i figured id post :-)

im having the worst time in the world right now trying not to cut. lets not get into that...

and candace, sorry if u read this, but i felt really left out today.

3s a fucking crowd.

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[07 Jul 2004|01:45am]

xtaunting_starx
hey guys

my name is candace.

this entry is gonna just be for me to introduce myself for now, but im sure ill be updating in here later...

good luck with the community megan. <3

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new [04 Jul 2004|05:51pm]
zonacruz6
i am new here. i will be back later to vent. i usually need to do that.

just a warning: i am a fucked up psycho.

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hey im new [04 Jul 2004|05:22am]
pink_injection
[ mood | guilty ]

hey i just joined. my name is jychelle and im bisexual. people think that i just say i am for a trend but im not. a lot of people call me a poser. i might be but who knows. most of the people that say i am pose off of me anyway but i dont give a fuck. i am a self mutalator(sp) i cut so i dont hurt the people around me. i have been told i was ugly for a long time... and for a while i started to believe them. i was told i couldnt amount to anything. my parents were the only ones who believed other-wise. i used to play drums in the school band but i quit due to the guys teasing me and saying that i played like shit (even though the teacher said i was better then most of the guys) i started causing fights with everyone just so i could have an excuse to leave the house and go for a walk up to the graveyard by my house. i left my boyfriend several times because of my depression and he still stood by me. i dont see how he can put up with my shit half the time. i am getting better. i dont pick fights with him as much anymore and i actually try to tell him whats wrong when im depressed. i dunno ive been told i might be bipolar.... and im already skitzo... wow what a combo... i guess i really am just a crazy fucker.

oh well its not like anyone is really gonna sit and read all that anyway. i guess i just needed to get it out.

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Pain... what is pain? its happiness that hurts... [03 Jul 2004|10:09pm]

starsxlollirot
[ mood | blank ]

first time... i thought i guess i would express what it might be like... pain... i hate the word... yet it feels sooo good. i hardly knew what happiness was until i met my boyfriend, then not to long ago i lost him... what a pathetic loser i am... i hope i die from drug over dose... i use speed alot, almost 2 or 3 times a day... i guess you can sall it my addiction. is an addiction so bad? i dont know friends, i have but a few and they do not bring me happiness... just drugs... so... in your eyes what is pain? or yet another better question... what is happiness to you? enlighten me... becuase i dont know the feeling anymore.

::..::stAr::..::

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I'm an Idiot [03 Jul 2004|05:55pm]

a_jokers_facade
[ mood | angry ]


I'm so stupid, I've really caused this pain I feel myself. Truthfully, I deserve it.
Still. I wish I didn't.
I told my boyfriend he could do what he wants with whom he wants. why? because he'd probablly do it anyway, and the fact I said he could kind of makes me feel better. kind of I don't know if he's going to use his freedom. I hope to hell he isn't, but what guy wouldn't? I know who he was with yesterday.
Amber.
This whore who sleeps with anyone and everyone.
They used to go out.
I think they had sex.
It'd be my fault, if they did. I'd still like to know.
I'm planning on asking her. She better not lie, Or I might shoot her, me or him. one of the three. most likely myself. (kidding)
Still. She knew I'm with him. Hell, everyone knows.
so, question is, is it partly her fault too?
I'd like to say it's all of our faults.
hers for being a whore and coming on to him
him for coming back on to her
and me for okaying it.

Im a douche.

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[03 Jul 2004|07:46pm]

lovely_mouse
[ mood | thoughtful ]

hey people. i just joined. i'm ashley. hi. i'm 16.

i had some pain today. i wanted to cut today. i don't even know why. it just came out of nowhere. and i'm doing so good with not cutting...i just...i'm afraid i'm going to slip. it just seems so sweet to feel the pain...omg. i just don't know. the urge gets so strong sometimes. but i must be strong. i hate this.

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[03 Jul 2004|07:07pm]

sunshinejulz
[ mood | blank ]

Hi My names' Julie. People call me Jue. Yeah.

I self injure, and have been doing it for a while. I have about 250 self hatred scars.

I don't do it for attention. I do it to take away the pain.. I do it just because.. I bleed just to know I'm alive.

Now, here is some random quiz that I took and you'll be able to know more about me. :)


Cut?: Ocassionaly.. Lately yes.
Sexuality?: Bisexual
Marital Status?: Single & Looking


When was the last time you...

Lied?: Today
Cried?: Two days ago..
Used Drugs?: Hmm, two weeks and a half ago, I think.
Were Sexual?: Three weeks ago..
With Who?: Phil, Nick and Mat. *shrugs*
Stole: A week ago?

_______________________________

Drugs?: Not anymore
Cigarettes?: Not anymore
Sex?: Yes please
Guys or Girls: girls
Chocolate or vanilla?: chocolate
Ice cream or sherbert?: Sherbert
Jello or pudding?: Jello
Candy or chocolate?: Candy


That's all.. I'm tired and bored. Comment! :) I need someone to talk to.. Or, if anyone has yahoo, I'd like to play an online game with you!

Bye!

comment!

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[03 Jul 2004|07:04pm]

sunshinejulz
[ mood | bored ]

Thanks everyone for joining. This isn't my community, but it seems to be a good one and yeah, I'm just happy that you joined. :D


i love you





Jue xox

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[29 Jun 2004|10:30am]

winged_me
Hey, to anyone who stumbles upon this community.

You are welcome to join and help me promote :-)

I hope the community grows big, because it is open to anyone and anything :-)

thanks guys <3

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